回忆

还记得小时候,
因为爸妈在外头工作赚钱,
无暇照顾我们姐弟三人,
而把我们送到保母家..
从此,我们便称她为奶妈,还有爸比..(她的丈夫)
我很庆幸让我遇上了她..不然现在的我应该是的坏女孩..
不懂体谅别人, 不懂人情世故的人.
小时候,还因为怕别人嘲笑..而不敢承认我住跟奶妈..
现在如果时光倒流, 我想大大声的说我有一个爱我的奶妈,一个疼我的爸比..

她常告诉我,做人要看开些,
心胸狭窄只会让自己吃亏..
她常说不要做伤害别人的事,因为那是有报应的
女人迟早都要嫁人, 要善待家翁家婆,
不然将来你的媳妇也会对你不善..
这些名言我永远都不会忘记..

我总觉得发生在你身上的太戏剧化了..
你以为儿子娶了媳妇, 搬新家, 你就可以享福了..
万万没想到你的媳妇竟然是这样的人..
身为一位老师, 应该基本的礼仪都懂吧.
我却从来没觉得你就是位伟大的老师.
让我痛心的是,你竟然有这么强的妒嫉心..

你只希望她帮你照顾小孩,
从来没体会她的感受..
你把孩子宠坏, 她只是出于一番好意想把他教好..
你却做脸色..
你不给她和她外孙聚会..等等等..
无奈..
看着奶妈一天比一天消瘦.
真的很心疼..
我真不明白一个这么好的人,却会遇上这样的媳妇..

我只是个小孩,我无权过问..
我只能默默的祈祷她的日子会快乐些..









All cubi ginas..haha..
I still remember I help you all change pampers and carry you all here and there,
when you're still small.
The time pass really fast..sigh.

The day we meet again

Date : 3-10-2010
Venue : Little Cottage, Queensbay.

Finally I have the chance to meet my buddy - Ean. Hurray.
I miss the time we spend together.
How I wish you're coming with me to continue Degree together.
However,I'm glad to see that you're enjoying your working life and part time study.
Wish that you can handle it, and I know sure you can. =)

We went to a restaurant named Little Cottage (If I'm not mistaken).
I loved the environment there.
The food was nice and cheap.
Thanks for brought me to this place especially the petshop. haha.





After that, we headed to Queensbay.
Sorry for the balated birthday celebration.
I'm so guilty that I couldn't celebrate with you on time.
I even forget to pass my wishes until the next day I only realised. shame.

Picture of the days.

Happy Birthday to you.
May your dreams come true &
All the best in everything. =)

Lazy

Wow..This had been quite a long time I didn't update my blog.
This is due to the lazy warm in my body. haha.
Finally I already been Kampar for one semester.
Everything fine there, but I need to work extra hard to adapt to those environment and situation.
I need to be tough to handle all the problems faced.
Tears isn't the way to solve it.
This I know very well yet I couldn't control it.
Sigh..
Fingers cross to pray for every thing will be fine in next semester.
I need to tell myself not to listen to all those nonsense thing.
It let me feel hurt, if only if I didn't listen to it..
Then maybe everything gona be okay.

The moment I saw everyone packing yet I'm still having the exam,
the feeling was complicated.
How I wish I can go back together with them.
This was the moment which drove me down.
I couldn't imagine how I'm going to stay for the 6 days without roomate and friends.
Those I chit chat when I'm bored, those who brought me to dinner,
those who accompany for badminton when I can't read anymore.
The following days I need to live without these.
Finally, all these come to the end.

I would like to thanks all those who support me.
Thanks to my hubby who keep his promise and his pillow. =)
Thanks to my friend that phone me every night right at 8 o'clock.
I'm so sorry that I shocked you.
Thanks to Hui See that come over to have dinner with me.
I'm appreciate that I have all of you to support me.
Thanks to my papa and mama come over and pick me.
It really touch. =)

不定

心情起伏总是不定..
有时侯会开心的大笑一番,
有时侯会无助的痛哭一场,
有时侯总会为小事生闷气,
有时侯总会期待些什么,
知道终就会失望,
可还是抱着很大的期望,
失望时还是接受不了.

我讨厌自己对某些事的执着,
真的很累.
也许我应该学会放手.
也许我应该学着去接受.

生活中,出现一个不错的分析者,
看透了一切, 解读内心的迷惑,
还真是一个不错的安慰者.

Everything is over.

The previous weeks, it was the weeks that I feel is the worst of my life.

I need my family to beside me.
I need mama's food to give me motivation.
I need didi's zo siao to brighten my life.
I need didi to talk to me, share with me.
I need my buddy to listen to me.
I need a space to release all my unhappiness and frustration.

Every time, I receive the calls I will tell mama I'm fine, I'm very happy.
Every time when I end the calls, my tears will flow out.
I'm fail to control my emotional.


I'm totally feel desperate for my life.
I'm even feel fed up for every single work and thing in here.
I'm totally feel helpless and hopeless.
Sigh..
But now everything is over.

I will learn to be tough.
I will learn to be optimistic.
I will learn to control my emotion.
I will learn to be independent.
I will learn to adapt to the new environment.
I will learn to cure my homesick and friendsick.

I want to be back myself.
The one who cheer people up,
The one who optimistic for every challenges,
The one who happy all the time.
The one who console people when they sat but not the one who need people console.

Thanks for all your concerns.
Thanks to my hubby, a pui.
Thanks to my buddy, Ean.
Thanks to my baby, lili.
Thanks to my sista, Gary.

I'm really appreciate.
I promise I will do it.!!!!

Nothing is impossible.
There will always a rainbow in the darkness.

想

我好想孤独地走在无人的街上..

我好想赤裸裸的在街上疯狂的跑..

我好想人任由雨水打在我身上..

我只想疯狂的过一天不同的生活..

宽恕

神木与瞳 - 宽恕

作词:吴本纬 作曲:杨阳


面对面坐着 眼神不屑一顾
挤出的笑容 看起来好突兀
我走错一步 坠入万丈深谷

还是会想起 你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上 血流已如注
背叛了幸福 拿爱当赌注

曾把感情放逐 何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧 让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕 承诺说得那么铭心刻骨

你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕 原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱 死在半途

听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟 我真的领悟
伤口 慢慢愈合 再被爱包覆