回忆

还记得小时候,
因为爸妈在外头工作赚钱,
无暇照顾我们姐弟三人,
而把我们送到保母家..
从此,我们便称她为奶妈,还有爸比..(她的丈夫)
我很庆幸让我遇上了她..不然现在的我应该是的坏女孩..
不懂体谅别人, 不懂人情世故的人.
小时候,还因为怕别人嘲笑..而不敢承认我住跟奶妈..
现在如果时光倒流, 我想大大声的说我有一个爱我的奶妈,一个疼我的爸比..

她常告诉我,做人要看开些,
心胸狭窄只会让自己吃亏..
她常说不要做伤害别人的事,因为那是有报应的
女人迟早都要嫁人, 要善待家翁家婆,
不然将来你的媳妇也会对你不善..
这些名言我永远都不会忘记..

我总觉得发生在你身上的太戏剧化了..
你以为儿子娶了媳妇, 搬新家, 你就可以享福了..
万万没想到你的媳妇竟然是这样的人..
身为一位老师, 应该基本的礼仪都懂吧.
我却从来没觉得你就是位伟大的老师.
让我痛心的是,你竟然有这么强的妒嫉心..

你只希望她帮你照顾小孩,
从来没体会她的感受..
你把孩子宠坏, 她只是出于一番好意想把他教好..
你却做脸色..
你不给她和她外孙聚会..等等等..
无奈..
看着奶妈一天比一天消瘦.
真的很心疼..
我真不明白一个这么好的人,却会遇上这样的媳妇..

我只是个小孩,我无权过问..
我只能默默的祈祷她的日子会快乐些..









All cubi ginas..haha..
I still remember I help you all change pampers and carry you all here and there,
when you're still small.
The time pass really fast..sigh.

The day we meet again

Date : 3-10-2010
Venue : Little Cottage, Queensbay.

Finally I have the chance to meet my buddy - Ean. Hurray.
I miss the time we spend together.
How I wish you're coming with me to continue Degree together.
However,I'm glad to see that you're enjoying your working life and part time study.
Wish that you can handle it, and I know sure you can. =)

We went to a restaurant named Little Cottage (If I'm not mistaken).
I loved the environment there.
The food was nice and cheap.
Thanks for brought me to this place especially the petshop. haha.





After that, we headed to Queensbay.
Sorry for the balated birthday celebration.
I'm so guilty that I couldn't celebrate with you on time.
I even forget to pass my wishes until the next day I only realised. shame.

Picture of the days.

Happy Birthday to you.
May your dreams come true &
All the best in everything. =)

Lazy

Wow..This had been quite a long time I didn't update my blog.
This is due to the lazy warm in my body. haha.
Finally I already been Kampar for one semester.
Everything fine there, but I need to work extra hard to adapt to those environment and situation.
I need to be tough to handle all the problems faced.
Tears isn't the way to solve it.
This I know very well yet I couldn't control it.
Sigh..
Fingers cross to pray for every thing will be fine in next semester.
I need to tell myself not to listen to all those nonsense thing.
It let me feel hurt, if only if I didn't listen to it..
Then maybe everything gona be okay.

The moment I saw everyone packing yet I'm still having the exam,
the feeling was complicated.
How I wish I can go back together with them.
This was the moment which drove me down.
I couldn't imagine how I'm going to stay for the 6 days without roomate and friends.
Those I chit chat when I'm bored, those who brought me to dinner,
those who accompany for badminton when I can't read anymore.
The following days I need to live without these.
Finally, all these come to the end.

I would like to thanks all those who support me.
Thanks to my hubby who keep his promise and his pillow. =)
Thanks to my friend that phone me every night right at 8 o'clock.
I'm so sorry that I shocked you.
Thanks to Hui See that come over to have dinner with me.
I'm appreciate that I have all of you to support me.
Thanks to my papa and mama come over and pick me.
It really touch. =)

不定

心情起伏总是不定..
有时侯会开心的大笑一番,
有时侯会无助的痛哭一场,
有时侯总会为小事生闷气,
有时侯总会期待些什么,
知道终就会失望,
可还是抱着很大的期望,
失望时还是接受不了.

我讨厌自己对某些事的执着,
真的很累.
也许我应该学会放手.
也许我应该学着去接受.

生活中,出现一个不错的分析者,
看透了一切, 解读内心的迷惑,
还真是一个不错的安慰者.

Everything is over.

The previous weeks, it was the weeks that I feel is the worst of my life.

I need my family to beside me.
I need mama's food to give me motivation.
I need didi's zo siao to brighten my life.
I need didi to talk to me, share with me.
I need my buddy to listen to me.
I need a space to release all my unhappiness and frustration.

Every time, I receive the calls I will tell mama I'm fine, I'm very happy.
Every time when I end the calls, my tears will flow out.
I'm fail to control my emotional.


I'm totally feel desperate for my life.
I'm even feel fed up for every single work and thing in here.
I'm totally feel helpless and hopeless.
Sigh..
But now everything is over.

I will learn to be tough.
I will learn to be optimistic.
I will learn to control my emotion.
I will learn to be independent.
I will learn to adapt to the new environment.
I will learn to cure my homesick and friendsick.

I want to be back myself.
The one who cheer people up,
The one who optimistic for every challenges,
The one who happy all the time.
The one who console people when they sat but not the one who need people console.

Thanks for all your concerns.
Thanks to my hubby, a pui.
Thanks to my buddy, Ean.
Thanks to my baby, lili.
Thanks to my sista, Gary.

I'm really appreciate.
I promise I will do it.!!!!

Nothing is impossible.
There will always a rainbow in the darkness.

想

我好想孤独地走在无人的街上..

我好想赤裸裸的在街上疯狂的跑..

我好想人任由雨水打在我身上..

我只想疯狂的过一天不同的生活..

宽恕

神木与瞳 - 宽恕

作词:吴本纬 作曲:杨阳


面对面坐着 眼神不屑一顾
挤出的笑容 看起来好突兀
我走错一步 坠入万丈深谷

还是会想起 你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上 血流已如注
背叛了幸福 拿爱当赌注

曾把感情放逐 何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧 让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕 承诺说得那么铭心刻骨

你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕 原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱 死在半途

听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟 我真的领悟
伤口 慢慢愈合 再被爱包覆

My Diploma Convocation

Date : 26-6-2010
Time : 2-4pm
Venue : CA, TARC.

Woohoo..Finally I'm officially graduate from TAR College.
A complicated feeling on me when the moment I wear my gown.
Here end my journey in Diploma and the journey of Degree begin.
I feel touch when papa told me I'm proud of you.
All the efforts I put, worth it.
Papa..I promise you will try my best in Degree.
I trust myself I can handle it well. =)


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My cousin. Keong. He is the 1st people to give me the present.
Feel shame to say that this is my 1st time to receive flower. haha.
Such a big big big surprise for me. Touch.


My Buddy.

My Papa & Mama.


My K mum. haha. Elvira's mama.


Dai Lou & Dai Sou. Wish you two stay sweet forever.
<3


Aunty Sook Mey.


Mr. Bo Jiin. My bodyguard on every Mon and Fri. xD


My Jie Jie and his ............hmmm hmmm..Wei Ni. Just for fun. =P


Ah Cheng.


Siew Ling.



Y2M15




Hurray..!!! ^^V.


Flower from my parents. Love it so much.
I manage to see it for 24hours only. Too bad.




Bear from my beloved buddy, Elvira.

Meaningful Lunch

wow..back from the senseless orientation. arghh..
not to mention about it. It really really make no sense la wei..ishh.
Wasting my time, my money..bla bla bla..
I'm really facing problem when my very 1st day staying at there.
The temperature so high, I couldn't sleep well at the night.
Goodness, I manage to adopt to it a week after.lol.

Back from kampar, the very 1st thing is to meet up my friends and hanging out for sure.
hahaha. Lepak kao kao. =P
Went to Penang at 10am.
Goshh..the bus ran away.
Maybe too long didn't take bus, blur about the bus schedule.
Thanks to my bro to fetch me here and there. (He never do this for me)

The felling of taking ferry is different. I miss the time I take ferry.
Actually is quite fun.
The lunch of the day prepared by Ms Elvira Lim Loo Ean.
A very big clap for her.
I'm really touch deep inside my heart.T^T


Potato salad.


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Pasta. Nice. Better than Pizza Hut. huhu.

Dessert. yummy. i love this.


Dinner at a Japanese Outlet.

Tired face after shopping whole day. =(

My tempura. yummy...



Chicken Chop with noodles.

End of the day.
Really tired but happy. =)

Belated Update - May holidays.

First of all, I would like to Thanks to all my friends that giving me such a memorable holidays before i go to Kampar.
I'm really appreciate the fun, the joke and the happiness that we shared & spent together.

Tan Shuang Yaw
~ Thanks to be my driver, come all over my house just to fetch me and drop me.
Ching Ching
~ Thanks to accompany wherever I want to go, and thanks for The Tao that make me broke. lol. =D
Tan Mern Jie
~Although we not really close to each other when secondary school, but the holidays make our friendship go closer. See you after 2 years. =(

The continuous lepak Trip
1. Queensday
-Sushi King & Robin Hood





Our Couple things. xD


Sushi Sushi, ah yaw loves you much.



2. Tao, Autocity






Oppps..something embarrassed yaw happened. His salmon fish drop on table.
LoL..We can't stop laughing.

Sorry for my unethical action. =P
I'm just trying to help u guys. weee..

My favourite food, Mern Jie's as well..


The view

Pictures of the day.


3. Sunway Carnival Mall, Clinic Cafe.

8 of us went to watch the nightmare.
Omg..we are challenging our strength of our heart.
Seats in front and middle of the screen.
I screamed it out..paisey. =(

Went to clinic Cafe to hace camera session.
Our camera man- Mr. Chuah Xuxu. *clapsssss*











End of the trips. ^^

Kampar, here I come

Today is the big day for us.
A day to decide where should we go or what should we do.
I'm kinda nervous about this and feel pressure when taking the exam.
Tears a lots inside the two papers. >,< style="font-style: italic;">Sigh...
After spending such a long time to explain, finally she understand.
1 and a half week left to start a new life.
I'm mentally and physically ready for it. weee..


Sunday
Mama brought me to pray in Jawi.
I don't know how to describe the situation there.
The number is there but almost the front 1 kept by the people there.
You can get a front no if you buy something from them.
Or else, you need to wait for you turn.=(

Visiting another sifu in Tambun.
He told me..
"You can't always so straight, or else you will be used by people around you".
I told him..
"I'm just doing it all in my way, and I always believe that no people will harm me if I didn't do anything, I believe that if I treat everyone with the truth heart, people will treat me as the way I treat them."
He said
"Why are you so STUPID.?"
Please beware of the people surrounding as they might be the one who betray you.
I'm just keep quiet.
Maybe he is giving me some hints to beware the people around me.?
Or maybe he want me to change the way I treat people.?
I don't really get it means. sigh.

Big Surprise.!

Date : 3-5-2010
Venue : Sunway Carnival Mall
People : Jimmy, AY, a pui & I

I was thinking if only if I can get a surprise in May, how good was that.?
Wow..My dream came true on that day.
It was just like a dream, a dream that I never think that it will happen to me.
I'm touched and surprise to receive his call as that time I was building the castle in the air. heh.
It was so true to me. Happy. ^^
Thanks to Mr.AY, Mr.Jimmy and Mr. a pui for giving me such a big surprise.
Mr.AY, ur GPS was so powerful.
I appreciated the day.heh hee.
Losers is the movie for the day.
Thanks a pui for the movie. <3
Noodles Station is the meal for the day.
***Beside Thanks..I really don't know what should I said to you guys.


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I get to know something.
Maybe that is the answer I'm searching for.
Finally I get it. Quite disappointed for the word.
Although it is not the answer I want ,
but at least I will try my best to accept the reality that I'm going to face it.
^^V.
From now, I can stop to build the castle in the air.
Perhaps leave it all and start all over again.
Two weeks left to start a new uni life.
I wish everything run smoothly.
I'm glad to have all my friends that support and concern about me.
Well..I was shocked as we had lost contact for months yet you still know a lots of me.
I like you words.
"You will know how to say when you really want to tell." =)
Friend forever is what we are. I appreciate it.

Date.?!

Date : 2-5-2010
Venue : Sunway Carnival Mall
People : My little brother & I

This was a great day for me, I was so excited.
It was just like a date and he was just like my boyfriend.haha.
Thanks for keeping his promise, he promised to shopping & movie with me.
He needed to meet up his friend to get his pay for the game.
Sigh..I not really understood all about that.
His friend was so shy. (maybe only this word to describe)
I wanted to watch IP Man 2, but he was underage.
Both of us did not like Iron Man. lol.
End up with crash of titans.
His very 1st time to cinema. hahaha.
He enjoyed the movie.
Thanks for the movie and the popcorn.
I liked to hang out with him as he will make the decision all the way and he knew what I want.
He suggested and I approved, then just go for it. Weee..
He helped me a lot in making decision.
I'm the kind need some suggestion when I'm fickle minded.
When I asked which 1 nice between meant I liked both of them just don't know want to buy which 1. Well..He was a great partner in this. =)
Before the movie, went to Sushi King as our Lunch + Tea time.
Had our great time there. The 2nd time we went to Japanese food outlets.
I realised that he liked it.










nice.!!!






End of the trip.
Spend a lot at Watson to buy the thing needed.
Thanks for Cinderella for the trip.
Thanks Keon for the popular card. =)